By: Andrea, guest blogger
make one’s way with difficulty.
Sometimes, to struggle is to feel the universe reminding us that we need to slow down, realign ourselves, and be more self-aware before we move forward. Through self-awareness comes balance and endurance. So, stay positive. Stay strong. Ask for help when you need it. Remember that, you will find your way through this.
At this very moment, I’m struggling. Struggling to keep my head above water. Struggling to maintain positivity. Struggling to ignore the signs my body is giving me, telling me to slow down. Struggling to live life the way I always lived it before; life and work first, mind and body last. And this scares me, because I know if I let myself hit that wall at the end of this finish line, it’s going to look different than ever before. And so, I remind myself that MS or no MS, I need to let myself heal and breathe. I will not hit that wall. I will not subject myself to the possibility of another exasperation of symptoms by unintentionally neglecting myself. It feels like I’m failing, when really, I’m failing to see this is an opportunity to become stronger. I’ve got you MS. I own you. You do not own me.
And now, what a moment ago was struggle, is simply a reminder that I need to stop, and take care of myself. I may not feel like I am able to do as much as I was able to do before, but in reality, maybe I was doing too much, too poorly. Now I am choosing to do less, and to do less well.
So, stay positive. Stay strong. Ask for help when you need it. Remember that, you will find your way through this. And you will feel better than ever before.