The Gift in MS

Written by on June 23rd, 2015 – No Comments

By: Andrea, guest blogger

grat·i·tude
/ˈɡradəˌt(y)o͞od/
noun
      the quality or feeling of being grateful or thankful:

Gift.  Normally we think of happiness and gratitude when we think of receiving a gift.   What I have learned, is that sometimes those reactions can be delayed.  But when you learn to accept a gift with an open mind, gratitude eventually ensues, and your heart will begin to smile.

View More: http://lyndsayessonphotography.pass.us/andrearhI am a newcomer in the world of MS.  In fact, I basically still have a visitor’s pass, as I wait here in Limboland for the gates of MS to open.   I have one clinical symptom, optic neuritis, and a stable brain MRI that shows two lesions.  My major symptoms, other than optic neuritis, are MS fatigue, and numbness in my legs and feet.  I experienced my first symptom of optic neuritis in July of 2013.  As terrifying as it was, I remember feeling relieved.  I had been seeing different doctors for years, feeling frustrated as I looked for answers to explain why I was feeling the way I was, and then finally, they were beginning to pay attention now that I had optic neuritis.  Fast-forward two years later, and here I am still waiting, but now with patience and acceptance.

I have been lucky to have an amazing support system that surrounds me.  One woman, in particular, changed my path early on in this journey.  She asked me, “What is the gift in MS for you?”  At first, my reaction was ‘What is she thinking…this is such an ignorant question’.  But as she patiently waited for my response, my thinking quickly changed, and I realized, the gift in all of this, is that the possibility of MS has given me reason to put myself first.  This was something that I had never done in the past.  And ultimately, it has given me incredible strength.

From that day forward, I always try my best to remember what MS has given me: strength, focus, awareness of myself, and a passion to live life as it is now.  Of course, there have been many days when I have felt anger and resentful to what I have been handed, but with the ability to change my thinking and remember the positives that MS is giving me, that anger and resentment quickly fades away.  And in return, I grow stronger.

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