Cape or Glasses?

Written by on December 1st, 2011 –

Cape or glasses, decisions decisions!

I am known among my friends for being the quiet, reserved, and responsible one. I am the Clark Kent of the story, not Superman (or woman in my case). It is not usually in my nature to be loud, or attention seeking. I am routine oriented, organized and thrive in structure. MS is anything but these things. It’s like this disease lies in wait for you to make plans then mocks you and forces you to change everything. I swear I am only mildly bitter! I don’t get mad though, I get even; at least my version of even.

When I was first diagnosed with MS I felt like my world was spiralling out of control. I couldn’t control my legs, I had appointments all the time, important decisions I didn’t feel ready to make. At 21 I had a hard time coping. So I thought I would control what I could. I started dying my hair. I naturally have dark blonde hair; this would prove to be a very useful canvas. I started by bleaching thick chunks of hair.  The last two inches of my hair all the way round the bottom were also bleached. After being bleached, magenta was put in. This was my favourite go to. It was before the days of Drew Barrymore sporting a similar look.

Every time I felt like things were getting too out of control I would change my hair. Cut it, dye it, you name it, I did it. My hair has been almost every color of the rainbow. It is only hair, it grows back. I am fortunate; I have strong hair that has endured this brutal punishment. I have now learned to deal with things better and my hair is only to thankful I am sure.

I have revisited the magenta hair only once since learning better coping skills. That was for my 2008 wedding. I had magenta hair when I first started dating my now husband so it seemed fitting to marry with magenta hair. So now only the occasional highlight occurs. I still have one thing that shocks my friends and people who see me as the quiet reserved one, that’s the large tattoo between my shoulder blades. The tattoo is the Capricorn zodiac symbol and three butterflies.  My next tattoo which I have been mulling over for the past couple of years will be a tribute to my MS, stay tuned to see this! For under each quiet and reserved person, there may just be an inner rebel waiting to unleashed!

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