Hope: A desire of some good, accompanied with an expectation of obtaining it, or a belief that it is obtainable; an expectation of something which is thought to be desirable; confidence; pleasing expectancy.
Hope is a simple word that is a mantra for many. It is lived, breathed, and believed in with every fibre of being. I can’t begin to tell you how many things I own that bear the word hope. Everyone I know is on the lookout for things that say hope or have hope embodied in them for me. They are things I display in my home with pride. I was given a gift that had the word hope inscribed on it shortly after I was diagnosed with MS. My parents gave me a St. Christopher’s medal on my twenty-first birthday with the word “Hope” inscribed on the back. It is a necklace I wear every single day.
The word hope is a word that drives me forward everyday. I live every single day with hope. Hope for the future, hope for a future without MS, hope for so many things. To me it’s not just a word. It is a feeling, a way of life, something that doesn’t always come easily – believe me. It has only been in the last couple of years that I have become comfortable with who I am and how MS is included in that. Like many of us with MS I try not to let MS define me. MS is a part of me but I am not defined by my disease. I fight my hardest to show people this. Sometimes I may come off cynical but know that deep down I am full of hope. My mom rolls her eyes at me because I always say “Expect the worst but hope for the best, that way you’re never disappointed.”
A few months ago, I was given my most treasured item with the word hope. It is a simple coffee mug but to me it is the world. It came from one of the people I have been closest too. He is no longer with me in this world but he is forever in my heart. It showed me once again that I just need to place my faith in hope and I will be ok. Not everything will be easy and it is not black and white but to me hope will forever be something I have. No one can take it away from me. No one can take it away from you either. Let hope be your armour when you need protection. Let hope be your mask when you feel you need to hide. Let hope be your cape when you need to fly. If you don’t have hope for yourself fear not for someone will always have hope for you!